an unfinished life

[new year's is a harmless annual institution, of no particular use to anybody save as a scapegoat for promiscuous drunks, and friendly calls and humbug resolutions - mark twain]

at last i am blogging. well, i feel like the guy who’s back in his wife’s arm after a long time. love is there but there a wall of aloofness that blocks intimacy. maybe its because there was a long hiatus between this and my last one. there has been a lot happening in my personal and professional life but i don’t want to bore anyone (least of all myself) i have been very unjustified towards my blog for the past few months and plan to make up for it this year.

i am starting the year by renaming my blog. good bye “the lone wolf” and welcome to “an unfinished life” well, if that’s not a spanking new start then maybe the resolution to blog more is? as my resolutions go, this is the most aesthetic one and lets see how successful i am in keeping it.

well, there i go!! i have fallen into the age old fallacy of the new year. isn’t the new year just hype? new year's eve is like every other night; there is no pause in the march of the universe, no breathless moment of silence among created things that the passage of another twelve months may be noted; and yet no man has quite the same thoughts this evening that come with the coming of darkness on other nights. i wonder why? what’s the point when what happens every new year is the same? yesterday, we all smoke our last cigarettes, took our last drink and swore our last oath. today, we are a pious and exemplary community. thirty days from now, we shall have cast our resolutions to the winds and gone back to our vices and embrace them with a fresh vigor.

also, why should the resolutions begin on the first? i do think new year's resolutions can't technically be expected to begin on new year's day, don't you? since, because it's an extension of new year's eve, smokers are already on a smoking roll and cannot be expected to stop abruptly on the stroke of midnight with so much nicotine in the system. also dieting on new year's day isn't a good idea as you can't eat rationally but really need to be free to consume whatever is necessary, moment by moment, in order to ease your hangover. i think it would be much more sensible if resolutions began generally on january the second.

anyway, i think my brain is satiated by all the ramblings that i did now. these were inside my brain like cobwebs and were cluttering up valuable brainspace. mush needed. now without further ado, let me go on…living…and unfinished life…